Sunday, March 20, 2005
oooh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
it's hard to get by just upon a smile
oooh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
i'll always remember you like a child, girl
last night i had a disturbing dream. i dreamt i was awoken (pardon the contradiction) by a call, or an sms rather. it was from someone i loved and she needed me, be it because she didn't have money for cab or lost her wallet, i don't care, the fact is she needed my help (or rather some money, it didn't matter too; read previous post about money = just paper). for that few moments in that dream i felt needed by someone i wanted to feel needed by. half asleep and telling me some disturbing things about her sexual orientations didn't make the reunion awkward, it all seemed so beautiful. that was what was awkward. the beauty of it all. hah, the irony. the false manifestation that i was the savior of all things beautiful. haha. i always thought if you loved someone, you'd do anything for her but no lah it wasn't anything of that sort, i was just coincidentally convenient.
then i woke up, to the empty house i slept in the night before. yes i really do love the lady in this wicked dream of mine (oooh, understatement of the year ian) but the truth remains she's gone. and there's no thousand words that i can say to make her come home for it was just a dream.
take of me all that you want
and if there's a thing that you need
i'd give you the breath that i breathe
if ever you yearn for the love in me
whenever wherever whatever baby.
anyway, the coincidences of songs and our lives per se, is pretty overwhelming I must say. have you ever thought of it? i could make a list of songs on a timeline and my life so far can be told by songs. ahh the power of music.
its time to go. goood fight, good night and good riddance, love. hahah.
Sufian at 4:33 PM
