Sunday, April 24, 2005
i give up ah.
i gave away what i had and loved, for something that i couldn't have, for something i thought i wanted. regret was always on the back of my mind when i made that decision. and now, that regret has finally caught up with me. i need you more than i'll ever show. i want it all back, the life i had before 2005 even begun. but i cant, cause mistakes are not easily forgiven and lost trust is difficult to regain. and you know how much i hate playing second fiddle, when its about me, its about me only hommes. so yeah i'ma just let it be, let her be. cause you see in a different light, the things you want now, and i'd like to think i helped you grow. yeah i did. hahah. and maybe i'd just disappear for awhile to see what happens, cause i've paid my dues. and good luck to whoever is planing to steal your heart, but best believe i gots your back should he try anything fresh. hahah. so lemme start anew. my 2005 begins now. lifes a biaaaaaatch.
on another note, suprise suprise, my 'loml' wierd sexual orientations are all but confirmed. i never thought i'd live to see this day. hahah. with all thats happening this month is beginning to sound like a looong april fool's joke.
Sufian at 2:13 PM
